Today we got the gift of hope. Hope for a future with children. Today we were told that we can go ahead with the IVF. I'm really quite excited about the whole thing even though I'm also trying desperately not to be. There is after all quite a large chance it won't work - the statistics say so. But still...
Hmm... well... week 2 has not gone well, I have seriously NOT been in the mood to lie down and meditate. I managed to lie down and do the whole thing once. This week the meditation consisted of the week 1 meditation and an extra meditation which was basically an elongated version of the first … Continue reading Mindfulness: Week 2
So we put in an offer on a house which was accepted in April, the problem is that with every (tiny as either the vendors or the Estate Agents or both are making things difficult) step forward I get more and more reluctant to move into said house. The survey threw up a lot of … Continue reading Second thoughts
So I had a missed call today telling me that my appointment with the gynaecology clinic at the John Radcliffe, regarding the hysteroctopy has been cancelled. They very inconveniently phoned while I was already on the phone and left a message. I tried phoning back twice but no joy, I'm assuming because it's after 5pm. … Continue reading Waiting
So as I said last week I'm taking the sister-in-laws advice and trying to follow a mindfulness course from this book:- Mindfulness a practical guide to finding peace in a frantic world. Having read the whole thing through before beginning I was a bit sceptical to put it mildly. Having completed, for the most part … Continue reading Mindfulness: Week 1
As you can probably tell from both my blogs and those of my husband. My head is all over the place at the moment. The thing is I don't think I'm depressed as I'm happy a lot of the time, I think I'm under a lot of stress due to infertility, moving house etc. But … Continue reading My Mental Health
I am not a people person... Except, apparently I am. People seem to like me for no reason whatsoever. This has always baffled and annoyed me. I am not sociable, I talk very little and am usually to the point (with strangers that is, I can talk the hind leg off a donkey if I … Continue reading I am not a people person….
How to kill you career in one fell swoop: 1. Start a new job. 2. Hand in your notice less than a month later. So, I decided to just quit. Well, hand in my notice, anyhow. I'll still be a civil servant for the next month or so, but after that I shall be jobless. … Continue reading How to kill your career in one fell swoop
As I mentioned a week or so ago I'm really not happy in this job. To be fair it's probably not the job itself, as such. It's more me having hit a brick wall. I've had enough of librarianing. I really have. It's just what do I do next? Can I really justify resigning when … Continue reading Resignation: Do I or Don’t I?
So last year for his birthday I bought the husband a voucher to go for an experience day, well half day handling Birds of Prey. This was at the International Bird of Prey Centre at Newent. This year just before the voucher ran out he actually redeemed it. When I bought it we lived about … Continue reading Orchard Barn Cottage, Middletown Farm, Newent
Well here I am a week and a half into my new job in the civil service and all I can say is that I feel very much like a rabbit in the headlights. So far I have met about half the team. It seems to be spread out over three offices. Two relatively close … Continue reading New Job